Mandeville - Lakeshore Drive - Louisiana

Big assignments make me really uninspired and I have the tendency not to do anything at all. That is somehow how I was feeling with the road trip pictures. We took so many pictures and I wasn't sure if I would be able to post them all before the new year! Thus, I just didn't want to post anything at all. Until today whist on the train I looked trough the pictures (I just couldn't make me study any more) and I organised the pictures and saw that there are only 4 more posts from the road trip! I can finally focus back on make up and things! I have bought some new things I am desperate to share!

These photos were taken before the longest continuous bridge over water in the world (we of course had to drive that bridge! It costs 3 dollars but it is worth it). The bridge is called Lake Pontchartrain Causeway. It starts in a small village called Mandeville and in that village is a park. The park is by the lake and the bridge so we decided to take a quick brake and stretch our legs and make-out underneath a tree.

The trees were dreamy and I just wanted to lie underneath them forever.

I don't think I've put in a picture of the super cute car that drove us all the way with out any problems! 

 You can see in the distance the bridge going over Lake Pontchartrain.

  

And the other direction nothing but water. Filthy, gross water! 

Now there are two posts left from New Orleans, one from a park we went to and the last one from Galvestone. 

I finally found a new photo-edit program that I can use when I'm not online! 

xxx

London (18.02.11-21.02.11)

I went to London for a weekend in February (yea I know late posting but the laptop problems delayed everything). It was my first time in England but hopefully not my last time!

I went shopping mad since I hadn't shopped for ages! Well I tried on loads of things but I didn't like a lot. I've got a problem with buying clothes. It's just so hard to find something that fits perfectly. I went to the stop I miss when I am in Geneva, Top Shop, but didn't buy anything there since I didn't find anything to my liking!

I tried on this gorgeous red dress that was made from this light cotton fabric.

It was perfect in the front but when I tried to zip it up it just was to small. The different colored socks bring me luck, yes I am superstitious.

 The Big Ben

The London Eye

As you can see it was lovely London weather, foggy and a bit rainy. The first day the weather was freaking COLD but as the weekend went on it got a little warmer.

I really liked this sign, no idea why! But I thought it was prettier then any of the other tube signs.

An empty tube hall station, it was so weird to walk these when no one was there. 

Last but not least a picture of a double decker bus.

I had an amazing time in London and hope that one day I'll be able to go there again. It was great to meet all the people I met and see a new city.

A year later....

I really can't believe it has been a year! It feels like yesterday that I made the decision that no one really thought I could accomplish and here we stand (well I'm lying in bed) and I did it. The truth is it wasn't even that hard!

For the past 2 weeks I've started trying on some new clothes, mostly to see what size I'm in now and what's going on inside the stores now. The statement of not buying any new clothes came from me trying to save the environment. We all know that I want that damn Nobel Peace Prize! But in the end I realized that it changed so many other things about me.

When you stop buying new clothes the first thing you definitely don't think about is that it will change something else. The fact is that life is one big formula and when you take a piece out of that formula something else has to change so you'll get the right end result. For me shopping was a way to make myself feel better, a new dress added some happiness into the equation but it was bought happiness that just didn't last. The cold hard truth was that I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin or my own personality. I didn't feel like me and I wasn't sure what was me and how I wanted to be. So I faked it and bought another dress. Most of these dresses I wore once maybe twice and I have them in my closet (that is still packed even after the year).

I can count the clothes I bought this year easily! One shirt, one skirt, one top and one sweater! The shirt, skirt and the top I bought in Iceland this summer and the sweater I bought in Geneva when I got cold! I traded a skirt for another skirt with my big sis. I bought as well 2 pairs of converse and when the snow came my step mum gave me her old winter shoes! I've not been wearing all my clothes since some of them are totally not my personality. Yes, I actually have a personality now. I know who I am and who I want to be.

You must think that stop buying clothes doesn't change anything but it does! It's the same when you quit anything for a certain amount of time something inside you just changes. I can't say if only the fact that I stopped buying clothes or all the other things that happened to me during this year changed me, but how can I say that these things didn't happen because I had started to change because of the clothes thing?

I was a total closed off person towards guys, yea they are fun but nothing more. For the past year I met 3 guys that I wanted (and tried my best) to be open with. Most of us do know the disastrous results of one of them (that will not be spoken of) but I tried. I can actually say I tried! That's something I never could say before! Two of them ended in tears one of that ended in me leaving the country for a month. But I tried! I made an effort and I showed vulnerability instead of just being the normal me Ice Queen. I did couple of Ice Queens this year, because I sometimes need to keep face!

I made as well some brutal decisions, that when I was making them broke my heart to billion pieces. I know the person that I had to make these brutal decisions about will never read this but in hindsight it was the right thing to do, for the both of us. Sometimes a friendship is to damaging in both directions that it needs to be cut off. I took some other friendship breaks this year and I don't regret them (again in hindsight) because this is real life and in real life people need to take some breaks.

This year has been filled with so many tears and heartbreaks and I think that's exactly what I needed to turn my heart back on. It needed that kick and that punch just to make me feel alive again and luckily I had amazing support from my friends and family that helped me through the first step of that agonizing feeling of being alive.

So, what can I say. I'm looking forward to some new jeans that don't have a gigantic hole on them and new t-shirts! I'm looking forward to buy things in colour since all my clothes are black! I want to wear something pretty and colourful! You can maybe start expecting more posts about what I'm wearing at the moment, highly likely not since I'm still lazy as f*ck!